dashing of the warrior

so my sparse followers, my next adventure is to get a personal trainer.

because i want to do warrior dash!

but god knows i need to get in great shape, probably stop eating so much goat cheese, and start running. to get started, i desperately need someone to push me into it. I'm self conscious to work out with my friends who i feel i will inhibit by excersing with them.

but how do i find a personal trainer? have any of you done this and how did you do it?

I'm Backkk

I GOT A COMPUTER!!!

This is fantastic. I now have the freedom to post whenever I want:) And speaking of posts....

Recently I've been having a couple doubts about moving. I'm pretty sure there are a couple reasons ranging from 'oh that makes sense' to 'this bitch is crazy' in the rationality department.

For starters, I realized that although I've moved around alot, I've never done it on my own before! Seems kinda obvious now that I've realized it. Oh well, I have a feeling I will be feeling a lot more ridiculous in the near future.

Another dawn of realization was that I have  a rather annoying ability to never lose hope, even in irrational situations, and an annoying ability to believe anything can happen (good or bad!) Together these "annoying abilities" make for not only an irrational fear of water I can't see the bottom of, but also create a skittishness about leaving Boston so abruptly. The worst part is rationally I know this is silly and that the guy I'm developing a crush on most likely won't ask me out, that that dream job won't be offered to me magically, and that an alligator/shark has not moved into the lake. For whatever reason, I still get all nervous and excited about these situations. This one I just gotta suck it up and deal with.

On the positive side, now every time I see a movie in theatres I get excited because I kinda want my name scrolling at the end at some point! Gotta make this happen.

Task One: Acquire Computer

So my dearly beloved laptop has reached the point in its life where it doesn't quite qualify as alive anymore. So in order to continue my journey towards California, I need to get another computer. The problem becomes, I have no idea where in the world to start!

Mac or PC? well I'm comfortable with PCs because its the only computer I've ever had and been thoroughly comfortable with. I know the in's and out's and the tricks. Macs are growing on me though. I have been using my roommates computer (BIG THANK YOU!!) to research, post blogs, and take care of the everyday necessities. It's a comfortable computer to use. And no worries or expense with viruses. Plus if I am returning to the video production world, a mac may be the wiser decision. But I really feel as though they are over priced and a little too delicate.

Other than getting back into production, I tend to use my computer for everyday online stuff, photo storage and word production. That's it. Anybody have ideas/opinions/anything?

The Cycle

So every time I start thinking about LA I go through a couple of phases. The first one is sheer excitement and 5 year old esque smiling. Then, to help calm that five year old down before causing a scene in the grocery store, I start thinking of the logistics and the ways in which to make the physicality of the move a tad bit easier. Then I start thinking about the last things I want to do in Boston before I leave which inevitably leads to me getting a little down and then I start second guessing myself. For example...

Stage 1- I'm so excited for a change!! I'm so excited to try and get back into the video production!! It will be sunny!!! there will be a beach!!!! AHHH!!!!! SO PUMPED!!!!

Stage 2- I realize at this point, as I start squirming physically, I should probably think of what kind of car I'll want to get, should I buy it in Boston and do a cross country tour before getting there? Or buy it in Cali? And of course I should do a scouting trip; head over there in February of March and check out the neighborhoods, maybe find a bar willing to hire me....which means I'm going to need to book a flight...and find a realtor! Who do I know that would have a good realtor? and do I want a studio or roommates? I'd like something similar to my apartment now...

Stage 3- I'm actually going to miss this apartment. Hrmm, and my bar regulars, and my bar. I want to go to Nahant beach at least a couple more times before I go. Especially with the old Kells crew. I'm going to have to sell my furniture before I head out there. But I really like my furniture! I found most of it on the streets of Boston. The really AWESOME streets of Boston. Boston really is kind of my home...

Step 4- Maybe I shouldn't move out there. Maybe I should just use my saved up money to travel and treat myself to a few treats. It would be easier, and I won't have to say goodbye to people. Or struggle to break into the industry, or...

BUT NO! This, my friends, is why I'm writing this blog. And if anyone reads this, y'all better help me with that. Because I AM going to go. I will not let me stop myself from doing something fun. From exploring. From doing something I've been wanting to do.  So shove it self. Let's do this shit.

Bahston

Boston has been good to me. In fact, I have a slight love affair with this place. It's a city filled with strength, personality, and awesome sports teams. And fans. There are neighborhoods for any personality and so many students that its hard to be bored. There is a rich history and diverse population of any and all personalities. I even love the homeless guy that directs traffic on the exit ramp near the entrance to Storrow.  Its a city I would love to raise a family in.

But I'm only 23. I may have lived in a variety of different cities around the States and in Europe but there's still so much to do! Why then, when I have almost no responsibilities of adult life holding me anywhere would I not travel? Explore new places, new things, new people? I can always come back to Boston. I will always consider myself a large part Bostonian. However, its time for a change.

When I graduated from school I decided staying in Boston was the best decision for me since I loved the city and moving wasn't quite financially a serious option. However, trying to switch from student mode to job searching/adult mode has been a wee bit difficult. I mean the hardest part is finding a big kid job. I've gotten tired of not hearing responses from ANYONE. I also don't have the connections in Boston in the industries I would like to get into, event management and film.

I'm just ready for something new!!

The Concept of Moving

Moving has been a very normal happening in my life from a very early start; I lived in five different places before graduating high school, my family has moved twice since then, I have lived in five different neighborhoods of Boston since coming up here for school and lets throw in a semester abroad for fun. The concept of moving really shouldn't worry me.

Butttt it does.

Moving with the family was always easy, mom and dad would pick a house, we'd move. Moving in Boston has been easy, I looked at a couple of apartments in the neighborhoods I liked, choose one, and paid friends (and boyfriends) in beer to help me move. LA is 3017 miles away (according to Google) and I've personally never been there. 

So why in God's name would I choose to move out there? 

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Through the course of my life, I have had many wants but few goals. I want to move to LA. I will move to LA. This is going to be me, ranting, raving, bitching, celebrating, questioning, and sharing my story as I get ready to switch seaboards. Enjoy!